i have tonnes of pictures to upload from hui's birthday..

p.s. all her pics though.. =P

but my internet connection cannot work lar.. =(

her birthday was quite fun..

the rush preparation by me & ky + all the cock-ups was really funny..

the hotel cannot make it though..

nice hotel.. unique concept..

but super inflexible & rigid..

guests are not allowed to stay after 2300hrs..

& even though they knew it was a birthday celebration & we told them actually the birthday falls on the next day.. therefore we only needed the cake at 12mn.. they said they can only keep it for us till 2200hrs.. -_______-

so obviously we couldn't care less..

coz afew more friends are only joinin at 12mn as a surprise for hui.. (& coz they are workin.. so they couldn't pop by earlier)

the hotel staff actually came up to knock on our door with a super huge sized guy standin behind him (majiam threatenin us) & said "your guests have to leave"..

what kind of service is this..

i think it would be so much more fun & enjoyable if the hotel was more flexible..

anyway..

i'm not goin back to the hotel again..

i wanna upload pictures sooooon!!!

ky.. when are you comin to help me take a look..

datz all~

*muackz*

i'm lovin my nails.. =)


i just came home after a 9.5 hour ktv session with jw.. *jaw drops*

haahaa.. we both find it unbelievable as well.. =P

okie.. i shall head to lala land now.. *tired*

before my ktv session.. i accompanied 3 people for lunch separately.. =P

if ricky knew.. he would niam me liao.. sayin i'm a PRO (public relations officer)..

but i had a great day today.. =)

gdnight~

*muackz*


B told me..

actually i really don't feel like seein u.. but see liao i don't feel like goin home..

on fri night i sort of forced him to meet me.. haahaa~

by repeatin "wo jiu shi jin tian yao kan dao ni.. ni lai meet wo hor.." to whatever questions he asked me..

in the end he gave in & came to my house..

everythin was pretty normal i would say..

we did not talk much about the week that past without each other..

i mentioned to him about R bein in KL with his girl.. & he told me alittle about his beautician - the girl who seems to love him alot, from what i see..

he asked if i'll be around for xmas (sadly i'm not) coz he has a xmas dinner at his aunt's house on the eve..

his mum already asked if i'm around for cny to go "bai nian".. hur~

he said his ah ma & mum kept askin him about me.. asked him where m i.. why wasn't he accompanyin me etc.. haahaa~

e next day he even accompanied me to jill's house to return the cabin bag she lent me.. & we happily went ntuc shoppin for tibits.. had lunch.. took a nap etc..

it was until evenin time when i was gettin ready for work he said, "i forgot we weren't supposed to so close.."

-______-

he sent me into my cab & left.. & sent me e above sms..

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on fri i was a little pissed with R..

i was at nor's house till pretty late & he sms me..

told me he was at jb..

it was 2.30 in the mornin..

so i asked him to give me a mornin call at 4.30am..

coz he most prob should still be awake if he's still at jb at 2.30am..

anyway he did give me my mornin.. & told me he's usin his friend's hp..

i just "i know ar.. my caller id did not reflect ur name what.."

& he told me to sms him later when i go for work & we hung up..

i sms him & did not realise he did not reply..

it was only when i called him to ask about my internet thingy at 3++pm that i realised both his starhub & m1 lines showed "wrong number" when i dialled..

& it suddenly came to my mind that he did not reply my sms to him in the mornin at 5++.. & this is so unlike him..

i got alittle worried & sms him..

i called his home but there was no answer..

almost an hour later still no reply..

i called his house again & his mum answered.. & e worse thing is she recongnise my voice..

i just asked her where is R lar.. she replied that she didn't know & will help me to locate him.. askin me if my number is still the same..

i thought somethin happened to him in JB..

it was my last resort.. i sms the number which he used to call me.. askin that friend of his whether he/she knows how i can reach R..

5mins later.. the number called back & i recognised his voice..

he was in KL..!!!!

with his girl..

WTF right..

still keep on sayin his friend his friend.. pls lar.. your girl then your girl lar.. why refer her as friend..

seriously i was pissed off with him.. not for the reason he went KL with her but the fact i was worryin for nothin.. & there he was enjoyin himself in KL..

the next thing i did was to call back his mum to inform her that i managed to reach him liao..

i do not understand why she does not want to tell me that her son is in KL with his gf..

i do not believe she doesn't know R isn't in Singapore..

i do not understand why R tries to cover up the fact they are havin a short holiday in M'sia..

i do not understand why he still wants to hide this & that from me now that we are no longer together..

anyway..

then she started askin why we broke up..

i mentioned about the gamblin part.. but excluded the possessive + vulgarities part..

i wasn't lyin.. it was half true..

anyway everythin did not happen overnight.. it is snowballed.. can't expect me to explain everythin to her..

or maybe is because i myself, do not know the real reason or what gave me the courage/strength (or whatever u choose to call it) to end this relationship totally as well..

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i think R is upsettin the balance we have now..

he got his "girl".. (i don't know what he calls her)

i got my "bi"..

we both are gettin on fine with our lives..

why wanna come back to me & upset the balance..

it's been almost 4 months since we broke up (time flies) & we both managed to get on with our lives pretty well now, yet maintainin the friendship between us.. i do think this is quite good..

& i hate it that he is disruptin the peace in my life now..

datz all~

*muackz*

YY in frankfurt.. after a fun chillin out session.. =)


heard many songs which reminds me of him..

which makes me feel pretty sad..

on a lighter note..

my bestie PJW is finally freed from his NS misery..

not like he is havin a hard time in there.. =P

but still..

CONGRATS.. =D =D

off to nor's house soon..

this is our last meetup before she is off to macau again..

her mum is cookin us dinner..!! =)

but the happy part is that the next time she's back..

we're goin to celebrate my birthday & then off to taipei.. *lookin forward*

datz all~

*muackz*

i will be fine..

soon..

转身离开分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外


it's rainin now..

& i remembered e sms from him tellin me to try catchin the raindrops if i miss him..

the ones i catch is how much i miss him..

& the ones i missed is how much he miss me..

i forgot to ask him then, how about when it's not rainin..


did not msg him the whole of today..

actually it feels weird..

i feel empty inside..

lettin u go is my only option..

i do not have the confidence i will love u back (or even near) the amount u love me..

so i choose to let u go..

i choose to let u find the happiness u deserve elsewhere..

& i wish u all the best..

=)


initially i thought to myself..

i m not goin back to him not because i don't want to but because i can't convince myself to..

i just need to give myself a reason to..

maybe if i meet some shitty guys then i'll believe he is still the best..

but instead, i met someone nice & sweet..


sometimes i hate to make choices..

many times i rather i m the one bein hurt..

at least i know there is only one thing i need to do..

that is to move on..

i hate myself for bein confused & hurtin the people who loves me..

i want to know what to do..

i hope i can foresee the future..

maybe R is right.. i gave B the chance to be hurt..

i could have prevented everythin..

i'm sorry..

i hate myself..


我真的心疼你..

you are the person i don't want to hurt most..


i knew i hurt him once again..

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开..

i knew he meant it..


was at harry's just now for dinner..

the menu shows some pictures of some food..

one of which looks temptin to me.. it looks like some chicken & fries..

so i asked the waitress what is the food in the picture..

her reply: the menu & the pictures do not match.. it's not in the menu..

i'm like ........ *jaw drops*

ying

YY aka birdie aka black blur bird (by NOR & PEA)
16 Dec 1985

greedy.. petty.. predictable yet unpredictable.. fickle minded.. lazy.. a glutton.. insensitive.. overly optimistic.. noisy.. stubborn.. ridiculously unreasonable.. do whatever i feel like doin.. speaks whatever that comes to my mind.. this is ME..

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